R-ain

-He Cares (8:00am)-

Slow day, slow morning. i moved towards the entrance of the bus when it reaches UTM Layby. I stopped. I don't know why. I stopped. The door closed and then it moved on. I found myself at South Common. " Why am i here?" i asked myself. " He'll be worried if he sees me like this now..." No. I don't want him to worry. I know he didn't get much sleep for the past few nights...always cramming. He needs his rest. It's not as bad here as i thought. Really quiet at eight in the morning here. Fewer foot steps walking by. Peaceful. I ended up at Wal-mart haha. Just walked around looking at random items. Oh look, kinder surprise. I see people staring at me. Do i really look that awful? Sure you don't normally see a student walking about so early in the morning for some candy, but hey...i'm not doing anything wrong. And if i happen to shed a few tears, i'll make sure not to spoil your merchandise.  It's nine something. I should call him. He'll be worried. Oh yay, he replied. I'm happy. A bit after, i don't know how but i managed to get to his dorm. I see him still sleeping in bed. His peaceful expression, i miss it. Laying by his side, i felt a whole lot better than staying out in the cold. His warmth and kindness gave me security. I miss his sweet kisses. He's waking up, damn, i can't let him see me like this...my tears are still there...i'll pretend to sleep. Praying to god he won't check on me. Please don't, please don't, i don't want you to worry. He brushed the hair off my face. Please...don't....he got up...and went on his computer. I let out a quiet sigh of relief. Thank god. I don't want him to worry. Especially when he has a test in 30 mins... 

-The Wait (11-00am)-

He just left, off to do his test. I just sat there on his chair, staring at the laptop screen...didn't feel like doing anything. Just kept refreshing the fb page...hmm when is my sister done...oh i miss her. I could really use a hug from her and him right now... But i must wait. Just an hour. I can hold on. 

-Leaving (2:50pm)-

I hate Thursdays. Always having to leave so early. At least he's busing with me today. I miss his comfort. Only a few weeks left until we depart from each other. The pain of separating even for a little while is saddening. I love seeing his warm smiles. It slows down and numb away the pain i have in my chest. His random comments are like love vitamins. Always helping me feel more at ease. I miss his strong hugs. He looks so calm and peaceful when he sleeps. His cute expressions reminds me of a little lost puppy. Maybe i should let him be and bus home alone. 

-Her Shadow ( 7:00pm)-

Looking out the cold glass windows

i can see my reflections. A bit hazy but still clear to me. Who is that girl staring back at me? I do not know her. An unfamiliar face with a well known expression. I can tell that look from just anywhere. Looking through her cold empty eyes, expressionless, tearful. You know she's hiding something but she's afraid to tell. Happy, happy i smiled back. No response. The drops of rain keeps hitting the window ever so slowly... motionless almost. And then you see it, a steady stream of water running down. No, it's not from the rain. It just won't stop. I asked myself what was wrong. Nothing. I don't know. The answer is unclear. It always was. She smiles back weakly. "Stay strong" she whispers. I am. At least i think i am.