Explosion.

I can see it all.
You're hurting inside
I wanted to fix it up
But you said it was nothing really
I know that feeling you're going through right now
It hurts.
A LOT
I feel like exploding right now
Knowing that you're hurting and i try to talk to you
But i can't do much at the moment
You'd ask me what i'm doing
I'd say "i'm drama-ing"...with my life
You'd ask "so what cha up to?"
I'd say "nothing much, just manga"...reading a diary of a girl and her past...

I want to talk to you...and i try to...but words won't come out
And all i could do is just sit here and watch you die in loneliness
I hate seeing you sad
I hate to see you in pain
Cause then it tears up my heart
And creates a huge gap in it
It's worst than the sickness that i have to deal with everyday

I don't know what to do.
But i'm sorry.
I'm falling behind...in a lot of things
And i'm trying to catch up...
Trying to see old faces, forgiving old enemies
Forgetting the past and moving on

I knew something was wrong with you. I'm not blind...
Yet i can't really do much...
I've exploded and it's too late to go back now.
It's done and yes i do regret this.

I have made a deal with the devil.
I have caused one too many problems
And i can't keep bugging the two most important people in my life.
I try to tell you guys. But word's won't spill out.

But it's done now. Soon the pain will go away...Soon.
I can't sleep for so long. Insomnia with a pain buried inside myself.
i'm sorry...
i'm sorry...
but i couldn't keep up with this anymore...