What happened today...you've totally changed...it kinda scared me...
Please don't do it again...because i'm starting to have second thoughts...
Monday, January 31, 2011
Please understand...
You have to try and understand that there are some things that are better left unsaid...
Please respect my wishes because i'd tell you everything when necessary...
But the reason to why i was a bit hurt and upset...i cannot tell you because i just needed time alone to sort it out...I would tell you but it has no value anymore for me to be upset...and if i tell you i know you'd make a big deal out of it and be sad...which i do not want...
I'm just having my moments where it's just _____
This is like something that if i tell you about it... i know i'll regret telling you ...
Don't be mad at me please...but i really can't tell you because it's nothing to be worried about...but if you must know...there is a person who will tell you everything if you really wanna know...
But please keep in mind, it means nothing now and i'm no longer hurt/upset...so don't be mad/sad or anything when you find out...
Please respect my wishes because i'd tell you everything when necessary...
But the reason to why i was a bit hurt and upset...i cannot tell you because i just needed time alone to sort it out...I would tell you but it has no value anymore for me to be upset...and if i tell you i know you'd make a big deal out of it and be sad...which i do not want...
I'm just having my moments where it's just _____
This is like something that if i tell you about it... i know i'll regret telling you ...
Don't be mad at me please...but i really can't tell you because it's nothing to be worried about...but if you must know...there is a person who will tell you everything if you really wanna know...
But please keep in mind, it means nothing now and i'm no longer hurt/upset...so don't be mad/sad or anything when you find out...
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Everyday, every night i try to move along
But my memories still linger onto me
And still it hurts like an old tune melody
I just don't know where to go from here
I stay awake, so lifeless
Make me feel like it was nothing
Just want to become something so unknown
Maybe then i wouldn't have to feel so emotional
But my memories still linger onto me
And still it hurts like an old tune melody
I just don't know where to go from here
I stay awake, so lifeless
Make me feel like it was nothing
Just want to become something so unknown
Maybe then i wouldn't have to feel so emotional
History. Is. A . B1tch
Just like the past...like the past
It's happening again...
I told you how i felt ...cried it out
Yet it's still happening...
I can't pick a side...
i want to disappear...because my heart can't take it much longer
I can't pick a side...don't want a repeat of the past
was too painful...
Took me 5,8,10 years to get over the pain... but my memories are still there...
Now what am i to do...
You tell me one thing, they tell me another
My heart says neither...what is this...
Can i just tear up my heart also?
It's happening again...
I told you how i felt ...cried it out
Yet it's still happening...
I can't pick a side...
i want to disappear...because my heart can't take it much longer
I can't pick a side...don't want a repeat of the past
was too painful...
Took me 5,8,10 years to get over the pain... but my memories are still there...
Now what am i to do...
You tell me one thing, they tell me another
My heart says neither...what is this...
Can i just tear up my heart also?
Friday, January 28, 2011
Who to Believe
Who am i supposed to side with?
It's hard for me to pick a side when both parties are wrong...
I don't know what to do...
Should i just keep my mouth shut?
Or shall i make that move?
Everytime you go I'm in the shadows
Every day you know the pain inside grows
Without you I lose the way
Fall apart-go insane
Used to be I'd hide inside the tv
Lately that's not really working for me
No one with anything to say
Not to me
Not to me
On and on and on the days drone...I need a song
What to do tell me what I gotta do
I can't sustain now the way I'm missing you
So I turn the radio up
Looking for a melody
But nobody's singin' to me
It's a blur don't remember what I heard
You said goodbye now I don't know where to turn
So I turn the radio up
Thinking I'm gonna find relief
But baby nobody's singin' to me
Every night I'm just a victim of the silence
Nothing there to help I tell you love is violence
Hurts more and more with each day
If you're asking me the price is paid
Used to be that I could call on my DJ
Tell him what it is that he could play play play
Play those words I wanna sing along
Make me feel nothing's wrong
On and on and on the days drone...I need a song
It's hard for me to pick a side when both parties are wrong...
I don't know what to do...
Should i just keep my mouth shut?
Or shall i make that move?
Everytime you go I'm in the shadows
Every day you know the pain inside grows
Without you I lose the way
Fall apart-go insane
Used to be I'd hide inside the tv
Lately that's not really working for me
No one with anything to say
Not to me
Not to me
On and on and on the days drone...I need a song
What to do tell me what I gotta do
I can't sustain now the way I'm missing you
So I turn the radio up
Looking for a melody
But nobody's singin' to me
It's a blur don't remember what I heard
You said goodbye now I don't know where to turn
So I turn the radio up
Thinking I'm gonna find relief
But baby nobody's singin' to me
Every night I'm just a victim of the silence
Nothing there to help I tell you love is violence
Hurts more and more with each day
If you're asking me the price is paid
Used to be that I could call on my DJ
Tell him what it is that he could play play play
Play those words I wanna sing along
Make me feel nothing's wrong
On and on and on the days drone...I need a song
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Don't Hate Me, Just Love Me ❤
You said it's over, i say it's not
You said give up, i'll just shut up
You said it's too late, to me it is a time & date
You said you hate me, i know you're mad
You can't forget me.
No, you just can't let me go.
Just love me.
Love me till the end...
You said give up, i'll just shut up
You said it's too late, to me it is a time & date
You said you hate me, i know you're mad
You can't forget me.
No, you just can't let me go.
Just love me.
Love me till the end...
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Numb
I need you to numb the pain away for me...
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numb it away. all of it. please.
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numb it away. all of it. please.
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I never wanted to hurt him
I made him cry
I did wrong
I can never do anything right
He's in pain
And it's all because of me
Why does it hurt so much...this love?
What am i supposed to now...
I don't want to hurt him anymore...
This pain is unbearable
Why.Why.Why.......why.......
I made him cry
I did wrong
I can never do anything right
He's in pain
And it's all because of me
Why does it hurt so much...this love?
What am i supposed to now...
I don't want to hurt him anymore...
This pain is unbearable
Why.Why.Why.......why.......
What Happen?
Tell me, will everything be okay?
The pain's increasing
And it seems like we're drifting apart
Please tell me everything will be fine
I love you, i show you i'm always online
Three. Two. One
I'm always online
Please tell me, will everything be alright?
Now i'm scared
what is wrong
Please tell me
I'm scared
I'm worried
My mind is a mess
I don't know what to do
I try to talk
I try to smile
But you keep your distance
It seems so familiar...this path...
That i try to avoid
It's happening again...no...i never wanted it to be like this...
I'm scared...
The pain's increasing
And it seems like we're drifting apart
Please tell me everything will be fine
I love you, i show you i'm always online
Three. Two. One
I'm always online
Please tell me, will everything be alright?
Now i'm scared
what is wrong
Please tell me
I'm scared
I'm worried
My mind is a mess
I don't know what to do
I try to talk
I try to smile
But you keep your distance
It seems so familiar...this path...
That i try to avoid
It's happening again...no...i never wanted it to be like this...
I'm scared...
Forgotten
Every time i start to open up...
They would end up leaving me
Each year it happens
Each time i'd cry alone
Forgotten and alone. Always
Now i can feel it between the two of us
I don't want it to end like that.
They would end up leaving me
Each year it happens
Each time i'd cry alone
Forgotten and alone. Always
Now i can feel it between the two of us
I don't want it to end like that.
Sedated
One.
Two.
Three.
Sedation Sensation.
Four.
Five.
Six.
My heart is hurting.
Seven.
Eight.
Nine.
The times that i'm awake
Ten.
This would be the end.
Two.
Three.
Sedation Sensation.
Four.
Five.
Six.
My heart is hurting.
Seven.
Eight.
Nine.
The times that i'm awake
Ten.
This would be the end.
Explosion.
I can see it all.
You're hurting inside
I wanted to fix it up
But you said it was nothing really
I know that feeling you're going through right now
It hurts.
A LOT
I feel like exploding right now
Knowing that you're hurting and i try to talk to you
But i can't do much at the moment
You'd ask me what i'm doing
I'd say "i'm drama-ing"...with my life
You'd ask "so what cha up to?"
I'd say "nothing much, just manga"...reading a diary of a girl and her past...
I want to talk to you...and i try to...but words won't come out
And all i could do is just sit here and watch you die in loneliness
I hate seeing you sad
I hate to see you in pain
Cause then it tears up my heart
And creates a huge gap in it
It's worst than the sickness that i have to deal with everyday
I don't know what to do.
But i'm sorry.
I'm falling behind...in a lot of things
And i'm trying to catch up...
Trying to see old faces, forgiving old enemies
Forgetting the past and moving on
I knew something was wrong with you. I'm not blind...
Yet i can't really do much...
I've exploded and it's too late to go back now.
It's done and yes i do regret this.
I have made a deal with the devil.
I have caused one too many problems
And i can't keep bugging the two most important people in my life.
I try to tell you guys. But word's won't spill out.
But it's done now. Soon the pain will go away...Soon.
I can't sleep for so long. Insomnia with a pain buried inside myself.
i'm sorry...
i'm sorry...
but i couldn't keep up with this anymore...
You're hurting inside
I wanted to fix it up
But you said it was nothing really
I know that feeling you're going through right now
It hurts.
A LOT
I feel like exploding right now
Knowing that you're hurting and i try to talk to you
But i can't do much at the moment
You'd ask me what i'm doing
I'd say "i'm drama-ing"...with my life
You'd ask "so what cha up to?"
I'd say "nothing much, just manga"...reading a diary of a girl and her past...
I want to talk to you...and i try to...but words won't come out
And all i could do is just sit here and watch you die in loneliness
I hate seeing you sad
I hate to see you in pain
Cause then it tears up my heart
And creates a huge gap in it
It's worst than the sickness that i have to deal with everyday
I don't know what to do.
But i'm sorry.
I'm falling behind...in a lot of things
And i'm trying to catch up...
Trying to see old faces, forgiving old enemies
Forgetting the past and moving on
I knew something was wrong with you. I'm not blind...
Yet i can't really do much...
I've exploded and it's too late to go back now.
It's done and yes i do regret this.
I have made a deal with the devil.
I have caused one too many problems
And i can't keep bugging the two most important people in my life.
I try to tell you guys. But word's won't spill out.
But it's done now. Soon the pain will go away...Soon.
I can't sleep for so long. Insomnia with a pain buried inside myself.
i'm sorry...
i'm sorry...
but i couldn't keep up with this anymore...
Cr@P!
What on earth am i supposed to do now...
why is it so FLIPPING HARD to decide!
I HATE THIS
I WISHED IT NEVER HAPPENED
This is not good...i'm such a stupid retard >___<
why...
Now they're gonna hate me ...
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F*****UCK!!!!
why is it so FLIPPING HARD to decide!
I HATE THIS
I WISHED IT NEVER HAPPENED
This is not good...i'm such a stupid retard >___<
why...
Now they're gonna hate me ...
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F*****UCK!!!!
Remorse
Thing's just not the same anymore...
What once seemed so close
Is now distant from the eye...
No words can explain this feeling
It's just odd in a way.
I don't like it one bit.
What once seemed so close
Is now distant from the eye...
No words can explain this feeling
It's just odd in a way.
I don't like it one bit.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Fume
Air it out
The heat between the two
They need to die off
Or else someone will get hurt in the end...
The heat between the two
They need to die off
Or else someone will get hurt in the end...
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sadness in Snow
I keep looking at the door
Hoping you'd walk through it
Where the winter trees are covered with light flakes of snow
And the grounds are no longer visible
I waited and waited and hoped to see your smile
You said you'd go to class
& I said i'd see you in the morning
But its too cold to go to your place
So here i am, in front of your class
Hoping that you'd come by soon
Unknown faces keep showing up
But none are which belonged to you...
Sleepless nights awaits for me
As i wander out with many thoughts
I tried to close my eyes last night
But still i couldn't for unknown reasons
Please wake up...wake up and see the bright white morning
Here i am, alone yet again with old memories coming back to me
Talking a long walk out in the snow
Just to let time pass by...
Hoping you'd walk through it
Where the winter trees are covered with light flakes of snow
And the grounds are no longer visible
I waited and waited and hoped to see your smile
You said you'd go to class
& I said i'd see you in the morning
But its too cold to go to your place
So here i am, in front of your class
Hoping that you'd come by soon
Unknown faces keep showing up
But none are which belonged to you...
Sleepless nights awaits for me
As i wander out with many thoughts
I tried to close my eyes last night
But still i couldn't for unknown reasons
Please wake up...wake up and see the bright white morning
Here i am, alone yet again with old memories coming back to me
Talking a long walk out in the snow
Just to let time pass by...
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Excuses.
Whose to blame. No remedy to cure this pain
No remedy to cure this pain
Because i believe there's nothing there for me
Lungs blackened from this filth that i'm breathing
polluted phrases are in the kill of season
My ears bleed and in turn i speak treasons
All my senses are killing my innocence
Cruel inventions are killing my innocence
No innocence is killing your innocence
My innocence, your innocence
Blame it on terror. Computer error
The east and west coast and also the post-consumer era.
The mayor, the president, the air, the elements
You don't wanna know the sinner
You don't wanna know the killer
Medication is stalling evolution
Evolution is stalling revolution
Evolution, revolution
Collaboration is the start of revolution
My decision, the start of revolution
Revolution, the start of evolution.
Revolution, evolution...
No remedy to cure this pain
Because i believe there's nothing there for me
Lungs blackened from this filth that i'm breathing
polluted phrases are in the kill of season
My ears bleed and in turn i speak treasons
All my senses are killing my innocence
Cruel inventions are killing my innocence
No innocence is killing your innocence
My innocence, your innocence
Blame it on terror. Computer error
The east and west coast and also the post-consumer era.
The mayor, the president, the air, the elements
You don't wanna know the sinner
You don't wanna know the killer
Medication is stalling evolution
Evolution is stalling revolution
Evolution, revolution
Collaboration is the start of revolution
My decision, the start of revolution
Revolution, the start of evolution.
Revolution, evolution...
Light
I need a light to guild me through
This long tunnel filled with doubt
I'm just sitting here in the middle of the night
With my candlelight burning up my false hopes
I'm just wondering if i have to make a fall
So you can catch me
Because i'm feeling so hysterical, so emotional
I need your warmth, wanna stay by your side
I needa change, i gotta change cause
I'm going crazy, so crazy for you baby boy~
Sweet calls of an angel's cry
Going through my mind, sending me
Beats of a steady heart
From a girl who once knew how to smile
The tides are getting higher
Drowning me away from reality
I'm drifting away, away...
This long tunnel filled with doubt
I'm just sitting here in the middle of the night
With my candlelight burning up my false hopes
I'm just wondering if i have to make a fall
So you can catch me
Because i'm feeling so hysterical, so emotional
I need your warmth, wanna stay by your side
I needa change, i gotta change cause
I'm going crazy, so crazy for you baby boy~
Sweet calls of an angel's cry
Going through my mind, sending me
Beats of a steady heart
From a girl who once knew how to smile
The tides are getting higher
Drowning me away from reality
I'm drifting away, away...
Because i'm feeling so hysterical, so emotional
I need your warmth, wanna stay by your side
I needa change, i gotta change cause
I'm going crazy, so crazy for you baby boy~
I need a light to guild me through
This long tunnel filled with doubt
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Empty Hole
Baby do you really care about me?
Or are you just feeding me a thousand lies of “love”
Tell me now…
You said I love you
But your actions speaks out
Dug a hole in my heart
Tearing out every part
noooo~
Cause words can’t measure up to your actions
Which you’ve been doing
And its making me sick of your lies cause
You said I love you
But your actions speaks out
Dug a hole in my heart
Tearing out every part
noooo~
I’m just tired of this
Cause I’ve been giving my all to you
But you just never did the same for me…
Yet you said I love you
But your actions speaks out
Dug a hole in my heart
Tearing out every part
noooo~
You said you’re sorry
But you keep on repeating
With all the pain I’ve been feeling
Ohh I don’t want to go through this again
ohh…ohh….no not again…..again…
I try to walk it out
Tried to push you away
But you keep coming around
And its so hard to distant myself
From you…from you…
And you said I love you
But your actions speaks out
Dug a hole in my heart
Tearing out every part
noooo~
You said i love you
but your actions speaks out...
Dug a hold in my heart...
Tearing out...every...part...
Insomnia #2
I can't seem to sleep for two days now...
I feel so hyper
I need more things to do
Been watching dramas late at night
And old movies
Oh i need to catch up with my mangas....YESSS
i shall do that ^^
I feel so hyper
I need more things to do
Been watching dramas late at night
And old movies
Oh i need to catch up with my mangas....YESSS
i shall do that ^^
Friday, January 14, 2011
Perfect Miss
Dry up those tears &
Wipe up the blood
I've reached so high
Yet you've aimed so low
I'm done crying now
Tried of the promises you keep breaking
I don't want another heart ache
It's just adding more heat to this boiling mess
So sick of your lies
Cause you only cared for yourself
Stop fooling me
I can't take anymore pain
You said you never wanted to see me hurt
I guess that's true cause you didn't even see the scars i've left on myself
Just ignored it so you can be satisfied...
But it's fine
Because i don't care anymore.
Wipe up the blood
I've reached so high
Yet you've aimed so low
I'm done crying now
Tried of the promises you keep breaking
I don't want another heart ache
It's just adding more heat to this boiling mess
So sick of your lies
Cause you only cared for yourself
Stop fooling me
I can't take anymore pain
You said you never wanted to see me hurt
I guess that's true cause you didn't even see the scars i've left on myself
Just ignored it so you can be satisfied...
But it's fine
Because i don't care anymore.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Paradise Kiss
What only lasted but a moment
Can make me feel like i'm living an eternity
Give me that feeling again
You're a paradise &
I am in need of a vacation
From all of this mess
Please sweep me away
From this place
Just for a little while
Until i can stand on my feet again
See how i'm not making any sense right now?
I'm so lost and i need your help to guild me through
Just that feeling again is all i need
My sweet paradise kiss,
So bittersweet
With the sour tears and happy smiles
I can see the red stained shirt...
Winter has left a mark on me
A scar of pain and happiness
With its bright red line across my skin
Oh how i wish i can stop this madness
Make it disappear
Let the colors fade back to normal
Erase the blue and purple tints and shades on me
Let me have my normal reflection again
Cause all i see is a girl with a hollow soul
With marks on her arms and a scar of the past.
Ease all of this
And give me back my smile
Oh paradise kiss, won't you come back to me...
Can make me feel like i'm living an eternity
Give me that feeling again
You're a paradise &
I am in need of a vacation
From all of this mess
Please sweep me away
From this place
Just for a little while
Until i can stand on my feet again
See how i'm not making any sense right now?
I'm so lost and i need your help to guild me through
Just that feeling again is all i need
My sweet paradise kiss,
So bittersweet
With the sour tears and happy smiles
I can see the red stained shirt...
Winter has left a mark on me
A scar of pain and happiness
With its bright red line across my skin
Oh how i wish i can stop this madness
Make it disappear
Let the colors fade back to normal
Erase the blue and purple tints and shades on me
Let me have my normal reflection again
Cause all i see is a girl with a hollow soul
With marks on her arms and a scar of the past.
Ease all of this
And give me back my smile
Oh paradise kiss, won't you come back to me...
JENNY BEANS
Jelly beans ...jelly beans...where have you gone off too...
i want more candy
some gummy bears
and sour worms
maybe a bit of cola gummies too
Jelly beans....red, pink, yellow, white, orange, purple, blue, green, black
i miss you...
i want more...
big gummies small gummies
even candy canes
chocolate mints and lollipops
so sweet and yummy
cotton candy and sugar canes
maybe some rock candies too
i'm sugar high and i need you now...
help me take away all my troubles
and feed me with your sweetness...
i want more candy
some gummy bears
and sour worms
maybe a bit of cola gummies too
Jelly beans....red, pink, yellow, white, orange, purple, blue, green, black
i miss you...
i want more...
big gummies small gummies
even candy canes
chocolate mints and lollipops
so sweet and yummy
cotton candy and sugar canes
maybe some rock candies too
i'm sugar high and i need you now...
help me take away all my troubles
and feed me with your sweetness...
Stay Strong
It feels like someone had ripped out a part of me
And sold it to the devil
I feel kinda half dead
Didn't want to tell you
But i knew i had to
Though it is hard...
You need to stay strong
Smile and keep your game face on
It's the best look you can have
Don't cry because of something like this
I promised i'd stick with you till the end
And i'm not letting anything get in the way
I promised and i'm keeping that promise
I hope you do too...
SMILE
STAY STRONG
No matter what
I love you too much
Seeing you sad makes me wanna give up...
So please...
SMILE
Stay strong...
It's gonna be all right.
I promise.
And sold it to the devil
I feel kinda half dead
Didn't want to tell you
But i knew i had to
Though it is hard...
You need to stay strong
Smile and keep your game face on
It's the best look you can have
Don't cry because of something like this
I promised i'd stick with you till the end
And i'm not letting anything get in the way
I promised and i'm keeping that promise
I hope you do too...
SMILE
STAY STRONG
No matter what
I love you too much
Seeing you sad makes me wanna give up...
So please...
SMILE
Stay strong...
It's gonna be all right.
I promise.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Unfolding of Uncertainties
I've tried to build up a wall
But you saw it tumble down today
I've tried to push you away
But still you've held onto me
I've tried to stop my stream of tears
But they kept running down my face
I've tried to stay strong
But you saw me falling
Still...you remained by my side
Reassuring me that we will be together no matter what
You're too important for me to lose...
So i'm sorry for being so cruel...and sharing my pain with you
"Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin"
But you saw it tumble down today
I've tried to push you away
But still you've held onto me
I've tried to stop my stream of tears
But they kept running down my face
I've tried to stay strong
But you saw me falling
Still...you remained by my side
Reassuring me that we will be together no matter what
You're too important for me to lose...
So i'm sorry for being so cruel...and sharing my pain with you
"Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin"
Monday, January 10, 2011
Hurt
The more you love
The more you feel pain
Because the pleasure of love lasts but a moment,
While the pain of love lasts a lifetime
The more you feel pain
Because the pleasure of love lasts but a moment,
While the pain of love lasts a lifetime
Cat & Mouse
If we could escape the crowd
And go our separate ways
Would you hold it against me?
If i decided to take that chance
And run after you
Would you wait for me?
If i can go back to the past
And undo the pain i've caused you
Would you give me a chance?
Would things have changed
If we were together?
Would i be happier if i follow you?
If i say i wanna give up
And go with you
Would you hold it against me?
Tell me...would you?
And go our separate ways
Would you hold it against me?
If i decided to take that chance
And run after you
Would you wait for me?
If i can go back to the past
And undo the pain i've caused you
Would you give me a chance?
Would things have changed
If we were together?
Would i be happier if i follow you?
If i say i wanna give up
And go with you
Would you hold it against me?
Tell me...would you?
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Sweet Like Sugar
I make you go crazy
You know i'm bad for you
But you can't get enough of me
Just one smile
And i've got you sprung
You're going insane
You're losing your grip
I'm just too sweet
you say i'm so addicting
Maybe cause it's true
I've got you all figured out
Wrap you around my fingers
You know you can't resist
I'm just your right kinda candy
Soft like cotton candy
Dandy as can be
Sparkle like ice crystals
To you i'm like a missile
Candy apple caramel
I'm your prize at the carnival
Sugar candy canes
Santa's little gift
Valentine love bites
I'll be your lover
Easter chocolate candy
Along with a bunny~
I'll be on your mind all year long
Throughout the holidays
And even in your sleep
I'm your sweet sweet sugar
A dose of happiness
Song that i am listening too:
baby let me love ya love ya love ya!~
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Dirty face Liar.
You took me by surprised
Pulled the strings off my back
Made me believe i can be free with you by my side
Was once a follower
Now i'm a slave for you
Got me going crazy
Made me believe that i can trust you
Called you like you asked
See you like you wanted
I did so many things for you
But you never did the same
Promised you would change
You never did
Same old habits
You keep repeating the history
I gave you another shot
But you still remained the same
Dirty face liar
That's just what you are
Lately i've been thinking
If i should end "us"
But i gave you one last chance
Just to see if i can still manage
You and i are way too different
I guess you're not the one
You're just not the same
You need to change quicker
Or i'll have to go
I trusted you
I thought that we would work out
He was right
You're not worth it
I don't need to go through all this pain for you
It was you who gave me so much pain
Never have i felt so hurt like this
Cause of you i had to sacrifice some things
Risk it all and knowing that if they found out,
It would be the end of you and i
I guess it's time to let you go
Dirty face liar...
It's been over three months
I think we need to stop doing this to each other
It's going no where
Can't you see...it's him whom i actually love
Not you...
It was nice knowing you
Thank out for all the memories you've given me though
But i think we need to end it now.
I'm going to close this chapter of my life
Please take care of yourself...
Cause i'm gonna go now...
But thanks for all the pain. You dirty face liar.
Pulled the strings off my back
Made me believe i can be free with you by my side
Was once a follower
Now i'm a slave for you
Got me going crazy
Made me believe that i can trust you
Called you like you asked
See you like you wanted
I did so many things for you
But you never did the same
Promised you would change
You never did
Same old habits
You keep repeating the history
I gave you another shot
But you still remained the same
Dirty face liar
That's just what you are
Lately i've been thinking
If i should end "us"
But i gave you one last chance
Just to see if i can still manage
You and i are way too different
I guess you're not the one
You're just not the same
You need to change quicker
Or i'll have to go
I trusted you
I thought that we would work out
He was right
You're not worth it
I don't need to go through all this pain for you
It was you who gave me so much pain
Never have i felt so hurt like this
Cause of you i had to sacrifice some things
Risk it all and knowing that if they found out,
It would be the end of you and i
I guess it's time to let you go
Dirty face liar...
It's been over three months
I think we need to stop doing this to each other
It's going no where
Can't you see...it's him whom i actually love
Not you...
It was nice knowing you
Thank out for all the memories you've given me though
But i think we need to end it now.
I'm going to close this chapter of my life
Please take care of yourself...
Cause i'm gonna go now...
But thanks for all the pain. You dirty face liar.
Friday, January 7, 2011
Grenade
Easy come, easy go oh that's just how i live
Take it take it take it all but i'll never give
Should of known i was trouble from never kissing you
Had my eyes wide open, why aren't yours opened?
You gave me all you had and i tossed it in the trash
I tossed it in the trash, i did~
To give you all my love was all you ever asked
But i will never will but you'd still
Catch a grenade for me
Throw your eyesight away for me
You would jump in front of a train for me
I know you'd try and do anything for me~
You would go through all the pain
Take a bullet right through your empty brain~
Yes you would die for me, you mole
But i won't do the same~
no no no no~
Black black black and blue, beat you till you're numb
I'll tell the devil you said hey but he won't take you in when you die
Bad woman, mad woman yeah that's just who i am
I smile in your face and rip up all your hopes and dreams
Gave me all your creepy feelings
And expected me to love ya
But i never ever will cause i think you're such a fool~
I know you'd go through all the pain
But i won't do the same....
If your body was on fire
Ooooohhh i'd watch you burn in flames ^^
I never said i loved you, you're a loser
Cause i never ever ever loved you~
But Mr. Mole i know you'd do anything for me
But i won't do the same....
noooooo i wont do the same...
no no no no~~~
Take it take it take it all but i'll never give
Should of known i was trouble from never kissing you
Had my eyes wide open, why aren't yours opened?
You gave me all you had and i tossed it in the trash
I tossed it in the trash, i did~
To give you all my love was all you ever asked
But i will never will but you'd still
Catch a grenade for me
Throw your eyesight away for me
You would jump in front of a train for me
I know you'd try and do anything for me~
You would go through all the pain
Take a bullet right through your empty brain~
Yes you would die for me, you mole
But i won't do the same~
no no no no~
Black black black and blue, beat you till you're numb
I'll tell the devil you said hey but he won't take you in when you die
Bad woman, mad woman yeah that's just who i am
I smile in your face and rip up all your hopes and dreams
Gave me all your creepy feelings
And expected me to love ya
But i never ever will cause i think you're such a fool~
I know you'd go through all the pain
But i won't do the same....
If your body was on fire
Ooooohhh i'd watch you burn in flames ^^
I never said i loved you, you're a loser
Cause i never ever ever loved you~
But Mr. Mole i know you'd do anything for me
But i won't do the same....
noooooo i wont do the same...
no no no no~~~
Thursday, January 6, 2011
:): I'm so bipolar...
I'm trying so hard trying to drown out the pain
Covered with lies
And building it up with a smile
Acting like nothing's wrong,
I try to pretend my life is perfect
But now i'm starting to crumble
My wall is breaking down
And you can see this crippled side of me
I'm looking away,
Trying to find a stable ground
But i'm slipping away
Fell down a couple flights of sanity
Now i'm laying there on the ground
Thinking what is there left to keep me in piece
Super glue and duct tape won't help
A thousand band-aids won't help heal this pain
It's too deep to even be fixed
All i can do is wait
Trying let the pain go away
Let it wash off in the rain
Or frozen away with the snow
You see right though my mask
You know what i'm gonna say
And i know you want me to tell you more than two simple words
All i can say is
Just stay by me
and let me hold onto you for a little while more
Cause i'm not ready to let go just yet
I know it's gonna hurt the both of us in the end
But nothing can be done
I wished time would wait a bit more
Maybe stop for a while
If only it can do that...
My life would be easier...
The pain would ease away...
I'd be so much happier...
And maybe a bit more normal...
Bleeding Love
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
Cool
It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
And we used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the painYeah, I know we're cool
And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool
Four in the Morning
Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright
But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
i'm lying here in the dark
watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less, cause you know I give you all of me
I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right
All I wanted was to know i'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright
But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
i'm lying here in the dark
watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
and nothing less, cause you know I give you all of me
I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come we do it right
All I wanted was to know i'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
About us
It seems like everythin’ is happened again
It’s the same old story
People keep on getting in my way
I’m tryin’ to do this for me
It’s the same old story
People keep on getting in my way
I’m tryin’ to do this for me
Cause I had a chance in everything
Puttin’ all this on me
It’s breaking every little piece of me
And I don’t ever want you to leave
Puttin’ all this on me
It’s breaking every little piece of me
And I don’t ever want you to leave
I’m trying to make it right
This thing that they call love
I need you in my life
I’m trying to make it right
This thing that they call love
I need you in my life
I’m trying to make it right
About us
I keep hearin’ it
About us
I don’t care what they say
About us
I hate hearin’ it
About us
I’m tired
I keep hearin’ it
About us
I don’t care what they say
About us
I hate hearin’ it
About us
I’m tired
It feels like I’m in a loose loose
With this split in direction
Why couldn’t it just be a one way
So I can give you affection
With this split in direction
Why couldn’t it just be a one way
So I can give you affection
Never thought I’d see the day
It’s not fast for me to choose
It’s not easy to explain
You’d have to walk in my shoes
It’s not fast for me to choose
It’s not easy to explain
You’d have to walk in my shoes
I keep tryin’ to turn the page
But it’s hard for me to do
Choosin’ you won’t blame the state
Either way I’m gonna lose
Cause you know I wanna
I’ll know nothin’ at all
You make the call
But it’s hard for me to do
Choosin’ you won’t blame the state
Either way I’m gonna lose
Cause you know I wanna
I’ll know nothin’ at all
You make the call
About us
I keep hearin’ it
About us
I don’t care what they say
About us
I hate hearin’ it
About us
I’m tired
I keep hearin’ it
About us
I don’t care what they say
About us
I hate hearin’ it
About us
I’m tired
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
STOP! In the name of Love
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Baby, baby
I'm aware of where you go
Each time you leave my door
I watch you walk down the street
Knowing your other love you'll meet
But this time before you run to her
Leaving me alone and hurt
(Think it over) After I've been good to you?
(Think it over) After I've been sweet to you?
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over
Think it over
I've known of your
Your secluded nights
I've even seen her
Maybe once or twice
But is her sweet expression
Worth a more than my loving and affection?
But this time before you leave my arms
And rush off to her charms
(Think it over) Haven't I've been good to you ?
(Think it over) Haven't I've been sweet to you ?
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Think it over
Think it over
I've tried so hard, hard to be patient
Hoping you'd stop this infatuation
But each time you are together
I'm so afraid I be losing you forever
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Stop! In the name of love
Before you break my heart
Baby, think it over
Think it over, baby
Ooh, think it over baby...
Fire & Ice
You're burning me up so quick
I never wanted to become like you
But now i'm gonna hate myself
Cause i'm falling into your footsteps
Shadowing the past...
Repeating the moves you've made
You're too hot and i'm getting colder by the minute
I can see you were right
It's never gonna work out.
Why...we've gone through so far
And only now i'm turning into you
It's not fair...and to think it would never happen...
So now what...
I'm so lost
Stop. Please. It's killing me
I know you & i are hurting...
Hiding our real feelings away
I told him, i'm all right
I'm not. You're not.
Why the fake smiles? Why the fake emotions? Cause...we care too much to let go of what we have...
No...things have changed...i've changed...
You've changed...why...please tell me...what am i supposed to do now...
I understand now, why you were acting like that
I can't blame you
Cause i know how it feels like...
I never wanted to become like you
But now i'm gonna hate myself
Cause i'm falling into your footsteps
Shadowing the past...
Repeating the moves you've made
You're too hot and i'm getting colder by the minute
I can see you were right
It's never gonna work out.
Why...we've gone through so far
And only now i'm turning into you
It's not fair...and to think it would never happen...
So now what...
I'm so lost
Stop. Please. It's killing me
I know you & i are hurting...
Hiding our real feelings away
I told him, i'm all right
I'm not. You're not.
Why the fake smiles? Why the fake emotions? Cause...we care too much to let go of what we have...
No...things have changed...i've changed...
You've changed...why...please tell me...what am i supposed to do now...
I understand now, why you were acting like that
I can't blame you
Cause i know how it feels like...
Monday, January 3, 2011
Unlove you
Even though my heart
Is tellin me to stay, beggin me to stay
My self-respect is telling me
I gotta walk away, so
I'mma gonna say what I gotta say
What's done you can't undo
I'mma gonna break what I gotta break
Cause you were untrue
I'm gonna hurt
I'm gonna cry
I'm gonna tear me up inside
I'mma gonna do what I gotta do
To unlove you...to unlove you
Until
I heal
I wish that i could freeze every thing i feel
That'd be one way
To unlove you
Emotions
Unknown
If i could only turn me into stone
And that'd be, another way
To unlove you
Is tellin me to stay, beggin me to stay
My self-respect is telling me
I gotta walk away, so
I'mma gonna say what I gotta say
What's done you can't undo
I'mma gonna break what I gotta break
Cause you were untrue
I'm gonna hurt
I'm gonna cry
I'm gonna tear me up inside
I'mma gonna do what I gotta do
To unlove you...to unlove you
Until
I heal
I wish that i could freeze every thing i feel
That'd be one way
To unlove you
Emotions
Unknown
If i could only turn me into stone
And that'd be, another way
To unlove you
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Makeup won't fix this.
i know the lipstick wont fix
but i gotta put my game face on
i wish mascara could mask this
until all the tears are gone
ive gotta paint the pain away
make like im ok
pretend i dont wanna stay
act like this ain't killing me
i've tried 1 2 3 to many times (to walk away)
i've heard 1 2 3 to many lies
so i gotta pretend that im not gunna miss you
i gotta pretend that this is what i wanna do
i gotta pretand when i walk out that door that i don't love you anymore
gotta play the part when you try stopping me
hide whats written on my face
dig deep in the make-up case........
and cover it with lipstick
i'm sick of looking in the mirrior
cuz the mirrior sees right through
MAC aint got enough consealer
to hide gow much i miss you
ive gotta cover up my heart
no more getting burnt
i really need'a let you go
cuz my heart can take no more
its the hardest role i'll ever have to play
its the hardest lie i'll ever have to make
to look you in the eye
and not break down and cry
when i say good bye...
but i gotta put my game face on
i wish mascara could mask this
until all the tears are gone
ive gotta paint the pain away
make like im ok
pretend i dont wanna stay
act like this ain't killing me
i've tried 1 2 3 to many times (to walk away)
i've heard 1 2 3 to many lies
so i gotta pretend that im not gunna miss you
i gotta pretend that this is what i wanna do
i gotta pretand when i walk out that door that i don't love you anymore
gotta play the part when you try stopping me
hide whats written on my face
dig deep in the make-up case........
and cover it with lipstick
i'm sick of looking in the mirrior
cuz the mirrior sees right through
MAC aint got enough consealer
to hide gow much i miss you
ive gotta cover up my heart
no more getting burnt
i really need'a let you go
cuz my heart can take no more
its the hardest role i'll ever have to play
its the hardest lie i'll ever have to make
to look you in the eye
and not break down and cry
when i say good bye...
Just me
Don't get me wrong,
I love who I am
I don't wanna be ungrateful
It probably sounds strange
The things that seem so simple,
Suddenly, so far out of reach
Sometimes I'm lazy
I get bored
I get scared
I feel ignored
I feel happy, I get silly
I choke on my own words
I make wishes, I have Dreams
And I still want to believe
Anything can happen in this world
One day here, One day there
And again it's time to go
So give it everything or nothing at all
Get back on your feel when
You stumble and fall
A little luck can go a long way
So don't you worry about what people say
Who knows when the wind may blow~
I love who I am
I don't wanna be ungrateful
It probably sounds strange
The things that seem so simple,
Suddenly, so far out of reach
Sometimes I'm lazy
I get bored
I get scared
I feel ignored
I feel happy, I get silly
I choke on my own words
I make wishes, I have Dreams
And I still want to believe
Anything can happen in this world
One day here, One day there
And again it's time to go
So give it everything or nothing at all
Get back on your feel when
You stumble and fall
A little luck can go a long way
So don't you worry about what people say
Who knows when the wind may blow~
The Truth Hurts.
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| Wished you were there for me...but you're never there when i needed you the most So i got used to being alone And learned to fear by myself Hurting alone. |
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Guilty
It's eating up inside of me...
Slowly...
Painfully...
Taking away my conscience...
Oh how i hate this...
Slowly...
Painfully...
Taking away my conscience...
Oh how i hate this...
Cheating
You can see it in her eyes.
She's lying through her teeth.
Her words, sharp as an arrow
Pierces through your heart.
Want me. Want me
She says...
You know it's better to just walk away...
But resisting is hard
She's pulling you in
Struck by her devilish smile
Her lavish beauty.
She taunts you with her laugh...
And leaves you wanting more.
You know you need to stop
But it's just so hard
She takes your hand
Moving closer to you
The space between you are just enough for her strands of hair to fall though
It's okay
She whispers
She won't know
And right then and there
you know...you're her prey
And she's making her move.
Like a game of chess
She's the queen
and you're just one of her pawns
She's in control now.
Now forget her
She's no longer here
I'll make a man out of you
She smiles
Your guilty pleasure rises
You follow her moves
Now it's too late to turn back
Two white swans
One little devil
and a witch cold as ice
Cheaters...you're both heartbreakers
But together you're just two heartless souls
Combined to create the biggest fear for her
that is...to lose you.
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