Even if things were tough, i couldn't say so
Even if i was sad, i'd always smile
I'm afraid of totally collapsing if i admit i'm having a hard time right now
I'm afraid i'll want to stop what i'm doing if i admit i'm sad right now.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Secrets
When a secret falls
Honey from lips
Flammable, catchable, a sweet taste of risk
Life is a game
We spin like a russian roulette
Teach me the way
Without a net
These secrets shimmer
Even the darkest shines
Mysteries glimmer
Tell me yours
And maybe i'll tell mine
Razor emotions
Hidden and cuts deeply
Beautiful but terrible
Whisper to me
If life is a game
We weave wicked webs
Teach me a lie
With no regrets
Honey from lips
Flammable, catchable, a sweet taste of risk
Life is a game
We spin like a russian roulette
Teach me the way
Without a net
These secrets shimmer
Even the darkest shines
Mysteries glimmer
Tell me yours
And maybe i'll tell mine
Razor emotions
Hidden and cuts deeply
Beautiful but terrible
Whisper to me
If life is a game
We weave wicked webs
Teach me a lie
With no regrets
Gentle Rain
Gentle rain is coming down
The sky is also like this
I thought you've forgotten about me
Tears fall, you just need to let it go.
Gentle rain is falling
The timeless me
I gave you away to go
Your warm hands are no longer here.
I wish i could sing to you
Our old memories that pass by
I wish i could dance with you
In this rain so you'll be happy
I wish you goodbye.
Our old song remains
Our old memories that pass by
Let it fade into the darkness.
You'll only hurt yourself.
The sky is also like this
I thought you've forgotten about me
Tears fall, you just need to let it go.
Gentle rain is falling
The timeless me
I gave you away to go
Your warm hands are no longer here.
I wish i could sing to you
Our old memories that pass by
I wish i could dance with you
In this rain so you'll be happy
I wish you goodbye.
Our old song remains
Our old memories that pass by
Let it fade into the darkness.
You'll only hurt yourself.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
What does it mean?
What does it mean when a girl tells a guy that he is nice, kind, generous, sweet, or gentle? You see... a few years ago i was asked this question... and i simply didn't know what it really meant. For each word would mean differently to a girl, but still these words would mean the same in a way. I couldn't really answer this question back then because i myself haven't met a guy who was like this in many terms. Of course i've met guys who were nice, or kind, or gentle- but never more than one or more of the words that are said above.
For a girl to call a guy nice, then he's nothing more than a friend. An ally whom she can talk to an express her feelings. But never getting closer than that.
When she calls a guy kind, he is just friendly at nature. Someone she looks forward to seeing but never being able to get close due to uncertain reasons.
If he is called as a generous man, he puts others before himself. He would give more than he would get, and all it would matter to him is that he can make someone else's day brighter than his own.
A sweet guy, the girl might see him as someone close, but just as a relative in a sense. Someone she can be herself around with but nothing more.
A gentle guy, that's hard to come by now a days. He would be tentative to her feelings and making sure he doesn't go overboard. He would be sensitive at times but that's what makes him more loving.
Now it's hard, finding a guy who has more than one or all of these features. And maybe you would never find one like that. But after these years, i was faced with this question that was stuck at the back of my head... what makes a guy nice? kind? generous? sweet? gentle? Well i can only think of one answer. You can never truly know this until you meet that person. For me, i finally have.
They say nice guys finish last, but hey guess what? They don't finish alone. And all the good ones are always the ones who wait. You see, they would spend all their time wondering when it would be their time to shine, and when they get that chance, they would do everything in their power to treat that girl like a golden star. They know good things are hard to come by so they would never abuse the chance they get to be with a girl.
He's kind, in every way you can imagine. Friend or foe, he's just that kind hearted in nature. He wouldn't lie, and if you needed a helping hand, he'll try his best to help...even if he knows he can't.
He's very VERY generous. Even though he's not Bill Gates or anything like that, when he sees the less fortunate, he doesn't turn a blind eye like society would do to them. He would stop. He would empty out his pockets for them as if it's a natural thing to do. HE would even feed them and that would make him smile like a kid whose going to Disney Land. He puts others before himself and sometimes...maybe a little too much.
He's sweet. Just the way he speaks, makes you feel like you're on cloud 9. As if there's nothing else to worry about. His calm soothing voice and his gentle laughs makes your day with him feel like a lazy sunday afternoon.
He's gentle. He knows his limits, and if he pushes it too far he would apologize...even if it's a tiny matter. He wouldn't blame it on others, he wouldn't make up excuses. He would admit to his mistakes and fix them. The smallest things he does for you would light up your day.
I've met a guy, who has all these qualities. To me, these words all mean differently, and a guy can have all of these things. Though it took some time, i'm happy to meet him, and to be able to stay by his side.
For a girl to call a guy nice, then he's nothing more than a friend. An ally whom she can talk to an express her feelings. But never getting closer than that.
When she calls a guy kind, he is just friendly at nature. Someone she looks forward to seeing but never being able to get close due to uncertain reasons.
If he is called as a generous man, he puts others before himself. He would give more than he would get, and all it would matter to him is that he can make someone else's day brighter than his own.
A sweet guy, the girl might see him as someone close, but just as a relative in a sense. Someone she can be herself around with but nothing more.
A gentle guy, that's hard to come by now a days. He would be tentative to her feelings and making sure he doesn't go overboard. He would be sensitive at times but that's what makes him more loving.
Now it's hard, finding a guy who has more than one or all of these features. And maybe you would never find one like that. But after these years, i was faced with this question that was stuck at the back of my head... what makes a guy nice? kind? generous? sweet? gentle? Well i can only think of one answer. You can never truly know this until you meet that person. For me, i finally have.
They say nice guys finish last, but hey guess what? They don't finish alone. And all the good ones are always the ones who wait. You see, they would spend all their time wondering when it would be their time to shine, and when they get that chance, they would do everything in their power to treat that girl like a golden star. They know good things are hard to come by so they would never abuse the chance they get to be with a girl.
He's kind, in every way you can imagine. Friend or foe, he's just that kind hearted in nature. He wouldn't lie, and if you needed a helping hand, he'll try his best to help...even if he knows he can't.
He's very VERY generous. Even though he's not Bill Gates or anything like that, when he sees the less fortunate, he doesn't turn a blind eye like society would do to them. He would stop. He would empty out his pockets for them as if it's a natural thing to do. HE would even feed them and that would make him smile like a kid whose going to Disney Land. He puts others before himself and sometimes...maybe a little too much.
He's sweet. Just the way he speaks, makes you feel like you're on cloud 9. As if there's nothing else to worry about. His calm soothing voice and his gentle laughs makes your day with him feel like a lazy sunday afternoon.
He's gentle. He knows his limits, and if he pushes it too far he would apologize...even if it's a tiny matter. He wouldn't blame it on others, he wouldn't make up excuses. He would admit to his mistakes and fix them. The smallest things he does for you would light up your day.
I've met a guy, who has all these qualities. To me, these words all mean differently, and a guy can have all of these things. Though it took some time, i'm happy to meet him, and to be able to stay by his side.
Monday, March 24, 2014
I'm not a bro.
I'm not a "bro". I'm a woman
Yes i cry, get upset, freak out and get stressed.
But who asked for that extra kick in our genes to make us sensitive?
We don't have extreme testosterones like men so we can't just "man the eff up" like you...
We get bruised easy, like an apple that gets poked once too many times.
Our feelings get hurt easily and we tend to break down.
Mother nature doesn't bring us any justice either.
So why would you snap back?
All i asked was for some love and comfort.
I cry and get upset but i would never hit you to take out my anger.
So why would you use such harsh words against me?
It hurts, thinking that you'd be the one to ease my pain away
But instead you just build up an even bigger flame
I don't know if i should be mad at you or be hurt.
I'm stressed, sad and upset
My best friend isn't exactly there for me at this time
So yes, i guess i got a bit carried away and broke down.
My head hurts and it feels like it's going to explode.
I feel sick and at times i just want to sleep away the pain and nausea.
Maybe because you grew up in a family of boys, but that's not how you should talk to a girl...
Of all people out there, i truly thought you would be understanding. What ever happened to that sweet gentle soul i fell for? The one who would just smile and keep quiet when he know's something is wrong, but still stay next to you when you need it...
I don't want to fight but this just really hurts right now...
i don't know what to think anymore...
- A sad and hurtful soul
Yes i cry, get upset, freak out and get stressed.
But who asked for that extra kick in our genes to make us sensitive?
We don't have extreme testosterones like men so we can't just "man the eff up" like you...
We get bruised easy, like an apple that gets poked once too many times.
Our feelings get hurt easily and we tend to break down.
Mother nature doesn't bring us any justice either.
So why would you snap back?
All i asked was for some love and comfort.
I cry and get upset but i would never hit you to take out my anger.
So why would you use such harsh words against me?
It hurts, thinking that you'd be the one to ease my pain away
But instead you just build up an even bigger flame
I don't know if i should be mad at you or be hurt.
I'm stressed, sad and upset
My best friend isn't exactly there for me at this time
So yes, i guess i got a bit carried away and broke down.
My head hurts and it feels like it's going to explode.
I feel sick and at times i just want to sleep away the pain and nausea.
Maybe because you grew up in a family of boys, but that's not how you should talk to a girl...
Of all people out there, i truly thought you would be understanding. What ever happened to that sweet gentle soul i fell for? The one who would just smile and keep quiet when he know's something is wrong, but still stay next to you when you need it...
I don't want to fight but this just really hurts right now...
i don't know what to think anymore...
- A sad and hurtful soul
Saturday, March 22, 2014
Matcha Buttercream Frosting ~
♡ 1 stick ( 1/2 cup) of unsalted butter at room temp. (you can use salted, it will just give a richer taste)
♡ 3 tablespoons of whipping cream
♡ 1 tablespoon of matcha powder
♡ 2 1/2 cups of powdered sugar, sifted
① Mix matcha with cream to make a paste
② Beat butter for 2 minutes min until it has a fluffy texture
③ Add sugar and matcha paste a bit of a time while beating the butter. Beat it until it has a smooth consistency :)
And viola! Matcha buttercream frosting :3
Sunday, March 16, 2014
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