Shower of tears

I could see it in your eyes, my swelling sad tears

It’s still filling up my heart and endlessly flowing down my cheeks

It’s so awfully sad, even my forced smile looks teary

My glistening eyes reflect my bleak image, it looks so pitiful

I keep going blank, tears clog up starting from my throat, it feels like tears will spill if you poke me

Because I know myself, I’m just a crying good-for-nothing who is in regret for not catching you

I lament, why couldn’t I have been a better person for you?

I blame myself, why did I only have to watch you leaving me?

I should have known in the end that your selfish heart wanted a different fluttering

Although I’m crying, I’m eating so I guess I still want to live

I want to smile as if nothing happened but the embracing memories hold onto me

Are these tears flowing down your eyes as well?

At first, it was drop by drop but it started to spill down for a while
Because I know that I have nothing at all, I lament because I can’t even be sad

I forcefully try to shake off your existence that still remains although my insides are burning up

I couldn’t hide it anymore and just showed you my lacking image
I try to wash away my awfully good-for-nothing and dirty image with my tears