Am I even right for him... I know I'm not exactly the type who stands out in the crowd...I'm not pretty to be noted of or even talented in anyway... I can't even put a smile on his face...I just thought If I can make one person happy... I'd get it in return. I am unworthy of his love

Spark be gone

I wish... He wouldn't let me down as much. I know we're not perfect... But I wish he would start acting like his age and not act so ... Kiddish sometimes. I know I've told him countless of times how I felt about it... But he still does it... Why can't guys grow up and not always take things the wrong way and get sad over the truth? I try to break it to him as nicely as possible... But he gets a bit sensitive and then does silly things that were uncalled for. I can't keep sulking down to this extent. The way he talks to me sometimes... It's like how my mom talks to me... Or yell... For no reason at all... The reason to why I dislike staying home and always trying to get away to find a peaceful environment... He does the same now... And it saddens me...My friends always tell me when you're in a relationship it will be amazing because the guy you love will always be there to cherish you and make you feel secure... But i wonder if it's normal to feel hurt sometimes... When I see him I greet him with a smile... But in return I get a frown from lack of sleep or tiredness...and I always think... It's because I can't make him happy. Once in a while I hear him laugh or smile and I get all excited thinking I made him smile. Instead it's from a two minute YouTube video of someone making a witty comment. And then I realize... I'm worthless. I try to be entertaining... But I can see... It's starting to die out... He starts sleeping more when we hang out, not watch movies while cuddling up together...saying he doesn't like scary movies when I suggested that he can pick anything to watch but kept insisting I should pick it instead, barely have anything to talk about with each other... I don't know what to do!