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It keeps jabbing my heart. Why does it hurt so much? What should i do? What would i do? Tears are falling un-expectingly. I did what i don't normally do. I called the one person i felt close to. But it feels like we're far apart. What should i do? What would i do? I just wanted to hear his voice. He said he was busy. I thought it was important. So i let him hang up- pushing my feelings aside. He called the second time, my heart skipped a beat. I was happy. The conversation did not last long. I shouldn't do this. It isn't right. The one i'm with keeps hurting me. But why do i always come to you when i'm in pain? It isn't right, you've moved on. I'm moving on. It hurts too much. What should i do, what should i do.