My 2012/2013 Wishlist

1.  Gold/silver Strawberry Earrings
2. Sephora Hello Kitty perfume (original- the one with the squishy pink handle) -not in stock on website-

3. Sephora Hello Kitty Sweet Gloss (peach)

4. Ipod 5th Generation
5. Pastel pink, lilac, baby blue case + glitter ipod screen protector
6. Vampire Knight Volumes 14, 15, 16, 17
7. Shinobi Life Volume 13, 14
8. Anna Sui Lipstick 301 ROUGE G
9. Taylor Swift RED album
10. Sephora Tokidoki Rollerball (Adieu) - discontinued in store-
11. H&M gift card ;D
12. Sephora FRESH SUGAR LYCHEE PERFUME
13. No really, a gift card would be awesome :) and a holiday card. Its the thought that counts <3

Juilette

The time you left behind caused this childish love to become a joke
The bitter coffee I drink thoughtlessly seems to have become my lifestyle. Oh baby
The only thing I hoped for was a small breath with you. 
The only thing I hoped from you was just a couple words Oh
The only thing I hoped for was to have the same viewpoint as you. 
The thing I hoped from you was to be together
Juliette Juliette I put your time in my heart without even knowing the reason
Yesterday’s memories already become a dream, causing my heart to become cold. Oh

Break

You raise me up then
you go and break me down
like a domino
falling down with 5 different angles
Why can't you just accept me
the way i am
I feel used, i feel abused
I'm hurt by the way you speak
All out of breath i isolate myself
From every lie that you've leaked
Please don't make me do this
Don't speak with such vulgarness
Spewing out your anger
with such bitterness
like this was all my fault
Once again i'm crumbling
to the floor
Begging for all of this to stop

Back to School Must Have Pressed Powder (For med/dark asians)

I'm not the type who cakes on makeup or even wear makeup regularly; but i have recently (yes i'm a late fashionista :P) found some pretty nice products that can help bring a that bright but natural glow to a normal/dull face :)

1) M.A.C Blot Pressed Powder.
   The name says it all! This M.A.C BPP is wonderful! It is a pressed powder that comes in 5 shades (in my case i used Medium Dark). Although there are different shades, they actually give you more of a translucent look! So don't worry if they don't have your shade (just pick the next lightest shade for your face) Reason why you should/shouldn't choose this product:
PROS
-It gives a matte finishing look
-blots and stops oil
-feels light and barely there!
-sets any makeup/foundation :)
-does not clog pores
CONS
-it's semi expensive
    If you're the type who has oily or acne prone face, this is a MUST HAVE! I bought this for $29. It might seem expensive but compared to CoverGirl, Maybelline Dream Matte or Sephora's UD Mattifying Powder (which i've tried and felt too chalky, breaks apart easily, OVERPRICED) This would be one of my favourite loveable powders!

So sick of love songs

I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here

I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't i turn off the radio...

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

Am I even right for him... I know I'm not exactly the type who stands out in the crowd...I'm not pretty to be noted of or even talented in anyway... I can't even put a smile on his face...I just thought If I can make one person happy... I'd get it in return. I am unworthy of his love

Spark be gone

I wish... He wouldn't let me down as much. I know we're not perfect... But I wish he would start acting like his age and not act so ... Kiddish sometimes. I know I've told him countless of times how I felt about it... But he still does it... Why can't guys grow up and not always take things the wrong way and get sad over the truth? I try to break it to him as nicely as possible... But he gets a bit sensitive and then does silly things that were uncalled for. I can't keep sulking down to this extent. The way he talks to me sometimes... It's like how my mom talks to me... Or yell... For no reason at all... The reason to why I dislike staying home and always trying to get away to find a peaceful environment... He does the same now... And it saddens me...My friends always tell me when you're in a relationship it will be amazing because the guy you love will always be there to cherish you and make you feel secure... But i wonder if it's normal to feel hurt sometimes... When I see him I greet him with a smile... But in return I get a frown from lack of sleep or tiredness...and I always think... It's because I can't make him happy. Once in a while I hear him laugh or smile and I get all excited thinking I made him smile. Instead it's from a two minute YouTube video of someone making a witty comment. And then I realize... I'm worthless. I try to be entertaining... But I can see... It's starting to die out... He starts sleeping more when we hang out, not watch movies while cuddling up together...saying he doesn't like scary movies when I suggested that he can pick anything to watch but kept insisting I should pick it instead, barely have anything to talk about with each other... I don't know what to do!

if I take one more step out the door
and if you let one more tear hit the floor
you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye, bye
one last chance boy this is no joke
you should know i'm sorry don't cut it no more
you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye, bye

they say you don't know what you have till it's gone, no, no, yeah
but i say that you know it on and on
no matter what i get caught up in your issues
Why do I try when i know i can't fix you
to listen up, eh you're really messing up boy
Call my bluff i mean that when i say


if I take one more step out the door
and if you let one more tear hit the floor
you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye, byeone last chance boy this is no joke
you should know i'm sorry don't cut it no more
you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye, bye


when i say jump, you say how high
and i say don't stop till you touch the sky
maybe then i'll start to believe
everything that you say you mean
so come and kiss me make it better baby please
don't make me leave, don't make me leave, no, no
don't make me leave, noooooo


if I take one more step out the door
and if you let one more tear hit the floor
you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye bye, you can kiss it bye, bye

And thus, he never learns.

I'm not that blind, don't take me for a fool

Obviously something is wrong. I know that look. 

But like always you worry over such nonsense. 

I'm just looking past it, because it'll just lead us back to square one.

So if you put on a face, so will i

But obviously you haven's seen the terror in my eyes

For the past week, never once did you notice it. 

Guess i'm getting good, at hiding my true feelings. You still need to work on yours, because i can see it clearly.

No use in rambling, no use in crying, i've been through it

I'm just learning to cope with it.

I can still be happy, just bury away my fears. 

What fears you ask? If you looked deep enough you would of seen my pain.

Better with you

When the tide is high
I'll find a way
To come back to you
The wind is strong
It took me off guard
I'll find my way back to you
The course is new, this place is strange
Yet theres a slight resemblance of the past
I know this place, i should figure it out
I'll be coming back to you
I'm better with you, no one else
Only you can change my attitude
They can't keep me as happy as you
Deep down you know it's true, without your warmth i'd be lost
In the past i'd be gone, but now with you i just can't leave
The way you talk
And how you stare
I love every part of you i swear
The things you do, i cherish them all
The times you took to get it right, i feel so happy for the try
Don't let me go, don't say good bye
Because i'm always scared of losing you.
I might not show it
But believe me when i do
Everything you say
I take it to heart
There's not a moment where i lost interest
In my mind there's always you
I can't help but lose control
When i hear you're with another girl
I know it's just a dream but my, it seems so real
Every time i wake up scared
Of wondering if it'll ever be true
Please don't go, never say good bye
I'll always love you no matter what
The thought of you gone from my life
Hurts me from inside out
I'm better with you, don't you ever forget that
There's no one else that i'd rather be with.

2012 Places I would love to go to:

10. P-mall
9. Shopping Outlet... LOL!
8. Build-a-bear workshop
7. Science Centre
6. CN Tower Edge Walk
5. High Park
4. Frankie's Tomatto
3. CNE (Canadian National Exhibit)
2. Niagara Falls
1. Last but not least, the place i really want to go to: Wonderland

:(

It keeps jabbing my heart. Why does it hurt so much? What should i do? What would i do? Tears are falling un-expectingly. I did what i don't normally do. I called the one person i felt close to. But it feels like we're far apart. What should i do? What would i do? I just wanted to hear his voice. He said he was busy. I thought it was important. So i let him hang up- pushing my feelings aside. He called the second time, my heart skipped a beat. I was happy. The conversation did not last long. I shouldn't do this. It isn't right. The one i'm with keeps hurting me. But why do i always come to you when i'm in pain? It isn't right, you've moved on. I'm moving on. It hurts too much. What should i do, what should i do.