Lalala

sarang-a sarang-a nae sarang-a
gaj-ji moshal apeun nae sarang-a
gaseum-a gaseum-a nae gaseum-a
babogat-eun mosnan nae gaseum-a..
geuliwodo bogosipdan mal mo tha-eun
meolliseo balaman bojiman
gat-eun sesang hamkke sumswineun geollodo

naegen gomaun salam.. saranghae nal nal nal apeuge haedo nega iss-eo haluleul sal-aga
han madi mal mal maldo moshajiman nuguboda neol saranghanikka..

lalala lalala lalalala

dagaseodo kkeutnae dah-eul su eobs-eoseo
dwieseo sumjug-yeo uljiman
geujeo meolli balaboneun geosman-eulo
haengbog-eul juneun salam..

saranghae nal nal nal apeuge haedo
nega iss-eo haluleul sal-aga
hanmadi mal mal maldo moshajiman
nuguboda neol salanghanikka..

nal nal nal babolahaedo
neohanamyeon apado gwaenchanh-a
saranghae neol gaj-ji moshaedo
yeong-wonhi neon nae jeonbu-inikka..

lalala lalala lalalala ~
._.

Spell The Magical Youth

It's so Magical
The spark between us
Lights up so bright

I love every moment of it
Spell the magic of the moment
It's just you and i
And i'm loving every moment of it~

My head feels funny
so airy
it feels weird
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
In a way you just shoved me out
Who the heck are you o.O
It hurts i don't know you
Who are you...
My mind is weird
Why are you here?

No painkiller can take this feeling of pain away
Once you take a dose of love, it'll sting your heart forever
There you left a mark on me
It hurts so much
The pain is unbearable to describe
I wake up screaming and then tears started running down my face
This is the worst pain i've experienced
I can't stop it no matter how hard i try

I'm complicated
I'm hard to deal with
I'm always trouble

Yet you still stand by
It's hard.

난 못해. . .

나만 몰랐던 이야기

정말 넌 다 잊었더라
반갑게 날 보는 너의 얼굴 보니

그제야 어렴풋이 아파오더라
새 살 차오르지 못한 상처가

눈물은 흐르질 않더라
이별이라 하는 게 대단치도 못해서
이렇게 보잘것없어서

좋은 이별이란 거, 결국 세상엔 없는 일이라는 걸
알았다면 그때 차라리 다 울어둘 걸

그때 이미 나라는 건 네겐 끝이었다는 건
나만 몰랐었던 이야기


사랑은 아니었더라
내 곁에 머물던 시간이었을 뿐

이제야 어렴풋이 알 것만 같아
왜 넌 미안했어야만 했는지

내가 너무 들떴었나 봐
떠나는 순간마저 기대를 했었다니
얼마나 우스웠던 거니

좋은 이별이란 거, 결국 세상엔 없는 일이라는 걸
알았다면 그때 차라리 다 울어둘 걸

그때 이미 나라는 건 네겐 끝이었다는 건
나만 몰랐었던 이야기. . . 

Pain from an X-Lover.

I'm still breathing
It's not too late
I'm still here
It's not too late
I know it hurts
I'll be here

I made a promise
And i will keep it
I remember
All the tears
I remember all the pain
Yet i still didn't mind

Things can change
Nothing is ever too late
We both know that it's true.
I never hated you
I hated how i couldn't be there for you
I regretted that truly

We can't go back to the past
No. . .
Let's keep it that way.
There's so many things i wanted to tell you
I didn't get the chance to. . .
I regretted it
I really do

If we can turn back time,
I wouldn't waste a moment telling you all of those things
But it's all washed away long ago
When i thought of nothing more than trying to believe the lies

It is true
you are a player
But a player who also got played
Foolish acts of two youngsters

Now that we've grown up
Things changed
Feelings changed
Though our hearts did once beat as one,
Mine belongs to another man now.

I don't want to be reason why
you're hurting so much
I never wanted to hurt you
You never wanted to hurt me
But in the end, we both suffered

But it turns out you have to pay with the hardest pain
I don't want to be the murderer to your heart
I never did. . .
I never knew how much you've loved me
I'm sorry. . .

you lost me

I am done, smoking gun
We've lost it all, the love is gone
She has won, now it's no fun
We've lost it all, the love is gone

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

And we tried, oh how we cried
We lost ourselves, the love has died
And though we tried you can't deny
We're left as shells, we lost the fight

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry and we were sweet
But you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

Wanderous

Can't eat
Can't sleep
I feel sick
I feel weird
Scared and nervous
Sad and happy
Why...
I'm wandering around
Dunno where i'm heading to...
Why...

Naive

I trusted you once
and you broke that trust
I gave you a second chance and you blew it away
And here you are with your hand reaching out
Should i trust you again
And see what would happen?

I admit it was fun in the past
But this is the present which i am happy with my current life
But why does it hurt to see it like this?
We're friends and it's cool to me
But in your eyes you are still dark and mysterious
You'd pour all your secrets to me
And then leave me stranded alone

And then you'd take me back to you and make me fall for it again
You're the cold blooded devil
Who knows all the right things to do
I'm glad we're friends now

I'm happy we're happy now
It was nice while it lasted
And thank you...because now i know why you left me in the first place

Thank you. I guess this is our final goodbye.

Good Girl Bad Girl

Trying to reach out to you
But you never listen
always look away
and when i confront you
it'll only get worst
if only you listened to me in the first place
And now i feel that it is happening again
Been asking you not to do what i hated
But still you can't relate to me
I'm getting tired of this
I just want you to hear me out
But when you do you'll just tear up inside
I'm feeling so unsteady
Very tired
Can't you just listen and take it like you should...
Because if this is how it's going to be like 
Then i'm afraid it's never going to work out...

Ignore ;o

she's crazy she's crazy
oh oh oh mama mia
she's just wrong wrong wrong
don't listen to her

i'm sick and tired of all this bullcr@p...
just stop..ok...STOP
i don't wanna hear anymore from you nor do i wanna get put up with this mess
it's your damn mess that you needa fix
so just leave me outta it
if you still care about him go tell him yourself
im getting tired of this ...
either settle this yourself or i will
seriously
i've had it
and i'm tired

Oh you're soo gonna wanna hear this out

It's happening...
what i feared the most
It's happening
starting from tmr
ya'll see the difference
cuz i'm changing
dunno if it's gud or bad
but wat eva
like i care now =3=
i'm fed up with it
all dis talk and cr@p
so do wat ya'll wanna do
cuz i'm out
pce.

Russian Red

In the night i bleed
Just randomly...
Never though it would hurt so...bad
The scars that shouldn't be visible
I hate it.
      make it stop
                i'm just hurting myself
                        make it stop
                                  i hate it
but how...

Expiry Date

My heart has an expiry date
It can't keep loving you forever
Each time i fall in love,
I'd give 1/2 of it to that person
Every time they break it,
It'll go with them and never returning back to me

So when i say i'll give you half of my heart to you
I'd give half of what i have left.
So please cherish it with your love and care
Don't trample on it like they did in the past
Or i will fall and crumble
With handful of shattered memories
And a battered heart that had been broken into tiny little pieces.

My Manga List

Currently reading:
Akuma to Love Song
Crazy Girl Shin Bia
B.O.D.Y
Ugly Duckling to Swan
Vampire Knight

Stopped Reading/planning on reading:
A kiss to my prince
Billion princess
D.N Angel
Fall in Love like a Comic
Beauty Pop
Loveless
Love SOS
XXX Holic
Strawberry 100%
Liar Game
Love Berrish
Become Habituated to Kiss
Galaxy Angel
Dear my girls
The Wall Flower
S.L.H
Hapi Mari
Black Bird
.hack
She's Scary
Ouran High School Host Club
Fated to Love You
Magical Jxr
stepping on Roses
Negima
You're my Girlfriend
Baby it's You

Done Reading:
Koizora
Absolute Boyfriend
Fruits Basket
Princess Ai
Billion Girl
Honey & Clover
Honey/Honey Drop
Kimi no Tokode
Boys Over Flowers
Angel Sanctuary
Baby and Me
Beauty is the Beast
Bitter Virgin
Chobits
Meru Peri
Full Moon o Sagashite
Dengeki Daisy
Forbidden Kiss
Hana Kimi
Cactus Secret
Romeo x juliet
Ceres
I like Beautify Guy
Faster than a Kiss
Special A
Hana To Akuma
Love hini
Love like Crazy
Kaichō wa Maid-sama
Othello
Guru guru pon-chan
Deep Love
Host


Theres more that i've read but i forgot the names ;o

Oh cr@p...

damn...what have i gotten myself into... o.O
But.. i must get it over with once and for all
set things right...
YES i shall do that
i will
I...holy i'm scared x_x

Over

It's over, it's over, it's over

It seems you can't hear me

When i open my mouth you never listen

You say stay, but what does that even mean

Do you think i honestly want to be reminded forever?

Don't waste your time trying to fix 

What i wanna erase

What i needa forget

Don't waste your time on me...my friend

Friend, what does that even mean

I don't want your hand

You'll only put me down

So save your breath

Don't waste your song on me, on me...

It's not easy not answering

Every time i wanna talk to you but i can't

If you only knew the hell i put myself through

Replaying the memories in my head of you and i 

Every night...

You're calling

You're talking

You're trying

Trying to get in

But it's over

You held me

You felt me

You left me

It's over

You touched me

You had me

And now it's over

So don't waste my time...

Jealously? o.o what?? o.O

Dear mysterious guy at the bus stop,
Thank you for thinking i am pretty...but i can understand VIET...lol...
I think you should stop checking me out with your friend because your girl is getting jealous =3=...

p.s my name is not "pretty chick in the blue coat with the bow on her head" it's Olivia...and sorry but i am taken...so stop trying to ask your friend to chat with me .....and your gf is mean...FYI she has to wear make up to look pretty lol. I go natural, and i love myself. So..to the girl who says i'm an "ugly retard", stop lying...because your bf says so otherwise... xP

Tired but Fun

I had such a wonderful week(s) this month! I got to meet my lovely hunny's family <3 and amazing sister!
But i get sooo tired after a full fun blast of hanging out with them...plus all them school work...tests....labs...essays....x_x
I am gonna die...
It's only wednesday and i'm already starting to drift off ;o
I wonder how i am supposed to have enough power to go through tmr's test...labs...and friday...omg friday x_x.... i wanna spend time with my hunny but must i go and get "that" over with first? ;o..i'm sooo tired... >< .....ahh....someone save me ....>.>

The Naked Truth

Since when should i believe that this was all just a dream
The times that i loved or what i'm saying right now
The promises i've cherished have withered without knowing...
The broken shattered memories
Have left me alone here
You and I
We were just part of a coincidence
Between you and I
No destiny holds us together
I can hear you saying without any comfort but only the truth
That everything sweet in the world is all a lie...

Esperando

If you had felt it with your glare, would you have come to me?
Whisper to my ears (adore you)
Experando, waiting for love
Don't take to long or i might change my mind
No matter when or where
I wanna be there for you
Could these feelings we have
Be honest, be real...
Dance with me, all night long
Come to me, whose waiting for you
Whisper to my ears (adore you)
Until i say stop.
Please hurry, before i change my mind
Waiting for love~

Dizzy Dizzy Dizzy
Make it stop...
Please give me a bit more time :x

Hey hey hey 

Boy don't chu run away from me

I'm coming after you

So ya better get ready.

Fresh, Fresh, Refresh

Lies Lies, they're all i ever hear
Don't lie to me.
Just. Just. Just. Don't lie...love me or kill me
The only two options you can make now.
Burn me, free me
Hold me or drown me
But please don't lie.

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I want a new beginning,
with a brighter end to the tunnel
Where i know everything's gonna be alright
So let me refresh this.
Start all over ^^

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Reaching for the top but i keep slipping down
You're pulling me down ...down...down...
Let go...i wanna move up...
Get away from all this mess... let me go...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Lights lights, i need you...
Voices and echos in my head
I'm delusional
But i know it's true.
Don't take me just yet.
I will still keep running.

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Touch.

Sweet soft voice
I miss you so much
That soft velvet touch
Fresh breeze of spring
Warming me up steadily
Make me feel like a new person
Ease all my worries away
Take away the pain for me
Just stay here by me
And i'll know it will all be okay~

Free Will

A mind of its own
A heart to replenish
A soul to catch
A time to be frozen
A dream to be kept
With a promise from the past
I will run, i will run
If you can catch me, i will fall
Until then, i won't be yours
I will be free
From your binding
I will run, i will run
If you can hold onto me,
Only then will i be yours

Dark Carnival :)

You never thought it'd hurt so bad
Bring me a remedy
You never thought it'd hurt so bad
Never thought it'd feel so right
Bringing you to your knees
Never thought it'd feel so right

It's the edge of the dawn
When she looks in your eyes
And she wants what is hers
Before the light

And she runs on her own
And you'll hurt before you know
Not a sweet alibi
When you get your bloody dose
In the still of the night
It is there you'll feel it most
In this dark carnival
Where the end is close

(I'll tell you it won't hurt)
Never thought i'd hurt so bad
Funny how the story ends
Remember the beginning
Funny how the story ends
Should never have looked so close
(Should never have looked so close)
I can see all your cracks
Should never have looked so close

It's the edge of the dawn
When she looks in your eyes
And she wants
What is hers
Before the light
And she runs on her own
And you'll hurt before you know
Not a sweet alibi
When you get your bloody dose
In the still of the night
It is there you'll feel it most
In this dark carnival
Where the end is close

[laughter]
...and we'll fight to the death
(Tell me it won't hurt)
...everyone has an hour
...and the weapons
(Tell me it won't hurt)
...so we'll fight to the death
...now it is final
(Tell me it won't hurt)
...for what?
(Tell me it won't hurt)
...who knows?
Tell me it won't...

And she runs on her own
And you'll hurt before you know
Not a sweet alibi
When you get your bloody dose
In the still of the night (of the night)
It is there you'll feel it most
In this dark carnival
Where the end is close

Tell me it won't hurt
(I'll tell you it wont hurt)
Give me a remedy
Give me a remedy
I'll tell you it wont hurt
I'll tell you it wont hurt...at all.

Paradise :)

Once upon a year gone by
she saw herself give in
every time she closed her eyes
she saw what could have been
well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds
when covers tucked in tight
funny when the bottom drops
how she forgets to fight... to fight

And it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise

As darkness quickly steals the light
that shined within her eyes
she slowly swallows all her fear
and soothes her mind with lies
well all she wants and all she needs
are reasons to survive
a day in which the sun will take
her artificial light... her light

And it's one more day in paradise
one more day in paradise
it's one more day in paradise
one last chance to feel alright... alright

Don't pretend to hold it in just let it out
don't pretend to hold it in just push it out
don't you try to hold it in just let it out and
don't you try to hold it in you hold it in

 

Gung hay fat choy!

Happy happy new year!~~~ and what did UTM give me in return for new years? Nothing LOL...literally nothing ;o

Oh wells ^^ But i must say...i was very happy today ^^ Because i get to see my SISTER again <3 i missed her so much ;_; and then my honey was so funny today...but i cannot say because it is just too funny of what he did hahaha!

Though my daddy got a cut on his face and feet, he managed to keep a smiling face on ~ That showed a lot of courage..i know he's in pain cause who wouldn't get hurt and feel pain after a GIANT glass window fell and slashed them...

But it's new year and my daddy still smiled ;o

I am sadden by this but at the same time i am happy to see him being so positive~~ 

but yes... HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL YA ASIANS OUT THERE!~ (that includes you too Majoori cause you're practically an asian now haha ^^) 

Ratata!

For the past two days, i have experienced what i had been longing for ... real family bonding time hahaha

I always wanted to see how it's like to be in a family with smiles and warmth...where i didn't have to feel like the world was about to end...and that i can actually forget all the pain i've been experiencing...

I am happy that you've helped removed that burden away from me...and i am thankful for that, really.

I'm so happy to meet a sister that i had never had, and smiling parents!!!

I love spending time with both you and your family and it means a lot to me to see you spending time with them also ^^

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With that aside... i am still concerned about my pabo but loving sister...because for all we know it she could be crying ....by watching sad dramas with her beloved JJ getting rejected by the girl he loves (Dating on Earth) or being scared by watching DEATH BELL ....oh gosh...taht movie x__x

But no matter what, i'm always there for you my loving BIKINI BRA SISTER!

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As for school...oh how i hate you UTM...ya could of told me AT SIX that school was cancelled...that way i could of slept in cause I GOT NO SLEEP CAUSE I WAS BUSY STUDYING FOR YOUR DAMN TESTS and what not x_x ....so there i was...dragging my poor sore butt to school...and having to find out "no school today"...like..seriously.....I HATE YOU UTM!!! =3='' *stabs the school buildings...spiritually...cause i am too tired to bus all the way there ;o *